I’ve had some busy weeks lately as I trained for a new job. Amidst all that, I lost a friend and dealt with some other triggers. It’s all left me tired, emotionally and mentally.
I’ve started writing a few potentially controversial posts but used that exhaustion as an excuse not to finish any of them. It certainly was a factor, but part of it was also my desire to avoid trolling.
My readership is not so large, and I make little effort to change that in part to avoid the negative reactions so many of my blogger buddies endure. Certain topics, though, do tend to bring those out. I chose to take a break. Part of me regrets it.
The thing I notice about these trolls is that what they really want is to silence the truth. So many survivors I know remain silent to protect themselves. So often in my life I have remained silent in order to keep peace or protect others. As my first blogversary approaches, I’m making a commitment not to be silent.
I won’t hide my truth or even hide from it. Some of it is as uncomfortable for me as it may be for others. Silence has been eating at my soul for far too long. No more. Silence is golden to some, but it is a great lead weight to me. I won’t carry it any longer.